No more pity party

Maybe you noticed, I deleted my last entry that should've been titled, "Pity Party," because that's exactly what I was doing when I wrote it. It is one thing to feel lonely, because I'm sure that happens to everyone, but I didn't do a very good job of expressing that. Instead, I made myself look like a picky, immature little girl searching for an imaginary and unrealistic friend. But, that's definitely not what I was trying to say. I'm just in a season of my life where I'm not doing very much in the social area, and I was feeling lonely at the time. But, I'm okay and look forward to moving and my birthday coming up in two weeks from today. :)

God's here

I know God is at work in my life because I am constantly being tested and constantly praying for His strength. He is the one thing that has kept my head held high and kept me strong through trying times lately. I don't see my trying times as negative. I see these times as God leading me to the next steps in His plan for my life. I know I'll come out on the other side of the tunnel with new wisdom and more maturity. That is what I want right now; I prayed for that. I pray for growth and strength and wisdom in my life. I pray for God to prepare my heart just how He wants.

The enemy sees me starting to do more positive things with my life and he is challenging me, trying to bring me down. But I just learned from, of all people, my massage therapist, that you're supposed to use scripture to rebuke the enemy because apparently he must flee if you do that. I didn't know that, and it's funny that no one else told me. They probably assumed I knew that, but there's so much I don't know. That's okay. It's better to have learned it now than never.

Today I went to Spencer and Jackie's house and watched Groundhog Day. It was a nice time watching the movie and then just chatting with them about random things. I was the only one who ended up showing up but it was still nice to get to know them a little better than before. I hope we can spend time together again.