Gramatical goofball

I just think it's funny how my Philosophy professor was very, very adamant about us having correct spelling and grammar in our papers ("college-level English skills"), however, in almost every bulletin he has written, he's made some sort of spelling error.

Duh.

That's all.

It seems logical...

I'm searching for the deeper meaning behind my struggle with weight. For as long as I could remember, I have been overweight. I think I'm closer to normal than obese, but the world tells us that thin is the way to be, so why wouldn't I want to strive for that as well? When I got out of high school I really started obsessing more over my weight and thought I should lose weight. I didn't lose any significant amount of weight until I joined Weight Watchers. Other than that, my life was the same cycle of events. I would work out regularly, eat "okay" for a few days, then just thwart my efforts and eat bad and be lazy. I may be pretty good at maintaining my weight, but I told myself that wasn't good enough for me. I can't ever be happy. When I ate healthy, I felt deprived and unsatisfied. When I splurged, I felt guilty. Along with both feelings, I have felt puzzled as to why I associate feelings with food and how I came to do that. Actually, what puzzles me more is how to correct this behavior. It seems perfectly logical to me that feelings should not be associated with food. In addition, the formula to weight loss is burning more calories than consumed in a day. Doesn't that just mean eat fewer calories and burn more daily? Why can't it just be that simple? I absolutely don't understand why food has this chokehold over me. What makes it even more ridiculous it the fact that my eating habits have a direct effect on my health. I don't just mean my future well-being, I mean my present well-being. I have IBS, and the poor foods I eat make this condition much more to handle. If eating healthier foods cause me to lose weight and feel better, doesn't it seem logical that I would eat healthy foods? It's incredibly frustrating. I feel like once I can understand my emotional attachment to food, I can reverse the behavior and begin to control food for the first time in my life instead of it controlling me. At this point, it's not even my body that bothers me the most. I am not totally thrilled with how I look, but I could be worse off and I know that once I figure out the deeper explanation to this issue, I can make the changes necessary to work for a healthy life.

One Step Forward

Well, I'm going to school this fall. There are no ifs, ands, or buts about it. I've decided to work for a bachelors degree in business, starting with SCC and then transfering to a university. To the best of my knowledge, I have figured out how my WSU credits go towards my Associates degree, and have also to the best of my knowledge, figured out which classes I have to take before I can transfer to a university. Now, I need to take these findings and go to SCC's counseling office and find out for sure that I've picked the right classes to start with. I am going to start with two classes offered online. They seem pretty easy, I think I'll do just fine! But of course, I need to get this stuff settled quickly since the quarter starts in about two weeks. The more I look into school, the more excited I am getting. It's about time I got off my butt and made some changes in my life. This is the first step forward.

Trapped in lies

Gossip and lies are nothing but vicious traps, aiming only to ruin relationships and friendships! They are poison, getting into your ears and infecting your mind and heart with the venom. Next thing you know, you are doubting a person who has never given you a reason in the world not to trust them. But these snakes who want to poison me don't give up, and they're so good at roping me in, it seems. This time, I am not going to let the venom kill me. I cut the snake off at the neck, and if that means I unknowingly cut off the vaccine, then that's just something I will have to live with. But I've got to follow my instincts here... I hate this. I pray for liars to come to justice!!!