In a very rough time of my life, after beginning to see a counselor when I was 16, we decided that it would be in my best interest to begin taking an anti-depressant. I was never really consistent with it, which in essence made me even more emotionally unstable. Nonetheless, whenever I took my medicine every day and it got in my system, I would have these random spurts of "joy" I guess you could say. It was like a wave of happiness.. that's the only way I can describe it. I would just be doing something no out of the ordinary, like standing at the scanner at work scanning pages and then I would feel so much happiness that I couldn't help but smile. It would go away quickly, but that's usually what made me realize that the medicine had kicked in. Whenever I would stop taking the meds for a while, I'd really miss that feeling.
As of recent, something really wonderful has been happening--without being on medication, I've been experiencing lots of waves of joy. I strongly feel that God has blessed me in a huge way by balancing the chemicals in my brain and relieving me of my crippling anxiety and depression.
I feel more stable and balanced than I ever have in my life.
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