Adrienne Flakes

Jacob's Well had a church campout last weekend! I was told about it well in advance, and it sounded like fun. There were no plans for me for that weekend and no other reason to keep me from going. But, when it came down to actually going, I didn't. I didn't end up doing anything particularly enjoyable that weekend, either. So, now I'm sitting here scratching my head, wondering why in the world I flaked out. It would've been a lot of fun to go and spend time with friends from church. It also would've been nice to go camping for only the second time this summer. And as if that weren't enough, it would've been a chance for me to be bapitzed Christian (I have been baptized, but I was baptized Catholic before I had a chance to decide). But, I didn't go. I didn't get a weekend to fellowship and build stronger relationships with people. I didn't get a weekend to get closer to God. What a shame!

I know one of the reasons why I didn't go was because Jacob wasn't going. I'm just gonna say it... I'm not proud of that, but sometimes we make emotional decisions. I think, though, that maybe it wasn't so much that he wasn't going, it was more that I didn't have someone to be there with. It seems like I am getting past that stage where I am totally cool with doing anything and everything, and I'm starting to really prefer someone to do things with. Not necessarily a bad thing, not necessarily a good thing either. It is just hard to go to so many church events with all of these families and I'm pretty far away from that stage in my life. I don't know... that's really no reason to isolate. I know that.

I'm just making excuses anyway... who knows why I've been so flaky lately. Either I need to stop saying I'm going to make it to things that I am invited to until I know for sure that I'll be there, or just try harder to be motivated to do more. I've been really lazy lately in general. I hope it's just a phase.