I think about what my life would be like if I hadn't quit school... I would be in my Senior year.
I think about what my life would be like if I hadn't quit Weight Watchers... I would have reached my weight loss goal by now.
I think about what my life would be like if I hadn't spent money on so many stupid things... I would actually have a savings account right now.
I think about what my life would be like if I had met Jacob several months ago... I might not feel so nervous about the future.
I could be angry at myself for these things. I could be angry at God for these things. But when I remember (again) that God has a plan for me, I feel peace again. No need for anxiety or nerves. I have to remind myself of that more often, I think.
Oh my dear Adrienne,
ReplyDeleteWhat would life be if???? I can't help think what would your life be like without Christ? I would focus more on the beautiful woman you are becoming, and wonder what you would be like now, today if you hadn't chose God. After all he chose you, and you have big things ahead of you. With Him you need not look back any more. The coulda shoulda woulda's can't be part of your THINKING or your vocabulary. You are a beautiful, intelligent young woman...What do you mean what if and why didnt I!!!!! Use your awesome writing skills to show who you really are instead of what you may of been. I'm glad you didn't do some of those things or we would not have got to know you and watch you grow. Stay up girl, if you think THINKING may cause you problems then DONT!
I LOVE you, your spirital mother and friend.
Joy