The ways of this world are grabbing a hold
Won't let me go, won't let me fly by
It takes it's toll down on my soul
‘Cause I know what I need in my life
Don't let me lose my sight of You
Don't let me lose my sight...
I don't want to fall away from You
Gravity is pulling me on down
I don't want to fall away from You
Gravity is pulling me to the ground
"Gravity" -- Shawn McDonald
Won't let me go, won't let me fly by
It takes it's toll down on my soul
‘Cause I know what I need in my life
Don't let me lose my sight of You
Don't let me lose my sight...
I don't want to fall away from You
Gravity is pulling me on down
I don't want to fall away from You
Gravity is pulling me to the ground
"Gravity" -- Shawn McDonald
I feel a strong connection to that song. It describes my transition [and struggle] into having the life of a Christian. It also reminds me of Jesse and his struggle. It's the desire and knowledge of what is right and which way is the right way to go, but the struggle of being distracted, challanged and pulled astray by the negativities and temptations of the world. It was almost easier being a relentless sinner. Of course I would never trade this life for that life, but it most definitely takes a conscious effort of reminding yourself a lot about the Lord and that yes, He's still with you. Even now... and now... and now too.
Maybe that's why Jesse has a hard time staying with the Lord; he just forgets. I don't know exactly what it is, or what to do about it. I've been seeing a massage therapist lately, and at my latest appointment Tuesday, I found out she is a Christian and we had a very nice conversation. After the massage, we prayed! How cool is that? She prayed for my well-being, Jesse's overcoming of his ADD, and Jacob's Well. She pointed out that she felt that part of the ADD was truly a chemical ordeal, but its being out of control at times was most likely the enemy taking advantage of his tender places... that's what usually happens, anyway, isn't it? But her words gave me some more hope in the matter of righting the wrongs of my life and Jesse doing the same with his.
My life is kind of a mess right now. It's partly still in boxes, and honestly I don't feel very content right now. I'm just ignoring the issues I'm having with myself and trying to stay focused on what's truly important right now. Maybe I shouldn't feel that way; maybe I should make myself the most important. I don't really know what I'm saying right now. I just need to go pray. Enough of this typing.
Maybe that's why Jesse has a hard time staying with the Lord; he just forgets. I don't know exactly what it is, or what to do about it. I've been seeing a massage therapist lately, and at my latest appointment Tuesday, I found out she is a Christian and we had a very nice conversation. After the massage, we prayed! How cool is that? She prayed for my well-being, Jesse's overcoming of his ADD, and Jacob's Well. She pointed out that she felt that part of the ADD was truly a chemical ordeal, but its being out of control at times was most likely the enemy taking advantage of his tender places... that's what usually happens, anyway, isn't it? But her words gave me some more hope in the matter of righting the wrongs of my life and Jesse doing the same with his.
My life is kind of a mess right now. It's partly still in boxes, and honestly I don't feel very content right now. I'm just ignoring the issues I'm having with myself and trying to stay focused on what's truly important right now. Maybe I shouldn't feel that way; maybe I should make myself the most important. I don't really know what I'm saying right now. I just need to go pray. Enough of this typing.
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