A Talk With Myself

I ran away yesterday. Not that far away, but far away enough to get away from my mind. I spent the morning full of anxiety-to the point of panic, even!-and realized I just absolutely could not live like that anymore. So, I got in my car and drove to Sandpoint. I walked around the town for a while, browsing the little shops and enjoying the weather. I went to the city beach and sat in the sand. I stood in the water and watched my feet get progessively buried with each passing wave. And, most importantly, I had a little chat with myself. Oh, I invited God to be a part of this little talk, too. What it came down to was this: It's time to learn to how to let go and trust God. There are so many unknowns and questions in life, that's a fact. But, if I let those unknowns dictate how I feel about life, then I'm not living for now. If I am consumed with the fact that I don't know what is going to happen in my future, I'm wasting today, and tomorrow, and yesterday, and those are days that I am never getting back. So, it's time to make a change. It's time to be okay-no, happy-with things no matter what the circumstances are in my life. Of course this is something I have always known, but now it's being tested to the fullest! It won't be easy, but God is good and He'll give me the strength to get through anything.