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So, is it the enemy who is trying to make me feel like I miss him so much right now... or is it really my heart? Oh, I don't know. I'm battling with these feelings of what if, what if, what if and I've been half-tempted a few times to approach him with these feelings, but I know that's not a good idea, for a lot of reasons.

I started typing out questions starting with "What if..." and realized that if there are that many questions and worries about these feelings, then it's probably not a God thing. I just don't like when I get confused between which things are true God things and what is the enemy trying to pull the wool over my eyes again.

I think I just long for some companionship right now and he is the most recent thing I know of. If it's God's will, it'll happen. If it's His will. I have nothing to worry about. It's time for bed.